Nikkie de Jager, more commonly known as NikkieTutorials, came out as a transgender woman in an emotional YouTube video uploaded Monday. "I have literally grown up and transformed into me in front of all of you." de Jager went on to explain that the content on her channel remained beauty-centric as not only an escape from what she had been going through in her real life as a young person transitioning but also a look into the world that she wanted so badly for herself. She revealed she was being blackmailed and this was the only way to take back her power. Everything felt so magical, so good, that I was afraid to lose him if I were to tell my full story. "My own identity. My own human being without any rules, without any labels and without any restrictions". I want to start the year off by finally revealing a part of my life that has made me who I am. "Love you mum. Because she has been there for me since day one, she has always supported me, always accepted me and that is everything you need as a kid, someone who understands, someone who listens, someone who respects". Instead of giving in, she told them "I'm not scared" in response to their attempted blackmail. "Nothing changes about that", she added.
Beloved Dutch beauty expert and veteran YouTuber Nikkie De Jager-a.k.a. She said the birth of a baby boy was a surprise to her mom and "definitely a surprise to me as soon as I had brains to think with".
"I am NikkieTutorials and I am Nikkie", she continued. "This was my free world where I could truly be me, and you guys didn't judge me for anything".
"Filming the video is scary but so liberating and freeing", she says.
She said by 14 she had begun using hormones and used "growth stoppers" that prevented her from becoming tall. "I am me. We don't need labels".
De Jager explained that she wanted to come out on her own terms but that the opportunity was taken from her.
"I have been blackmailed by people that wanted to "leak" my story to the press, and at first, it was frightening". It was frightening to know that there are people out there that are so evil that they can not respect someone's true identity.
While it's infuriating she was forced to make this video, it's incredible to see her living her true self out and proud. It is vile and it is gross.
As for the timing of the decision to reveal the news today, the YouTuber said it wasn't entirely of her own choosing.